a season

Long time no see. I have been away from the blog and writing in general for months. This space is mostly just for me, so it doesn’t bug me too much to go for awhile without a post. It isn’t like masses of readers are on the edge of their seats waiting to hear from me (!), but it has been nagging at the bottom of my to do list since at least May: “write a SBTS post x3.”

I have missed the writing, but the last few months have brought so many changes that I mostly ignored that nagging sense that I needed to put some things on paper. We moved, Grant went back to work full-time (listen to that story here), Project Eden has been in the fullest possible swing, and the kids both started at new schools in August. Until I happened upon this post, specifically her opening lines:

I notice how my blogging changes depending on the seasons. I see nothing wrong with this- but it took me a couple of years not to see anything wrong with this, given that consistency and continuity seems to be such important traits and attributions in our modern culture.

But I change.

I always have.

I used to be sick because of it, I used to take small white pills to avoid these changes (I call them fluctuations now) Because I didn’t have TIME to be depressed or to lose my words, I didn’t have TIME to be in a manic state of productivity, either or, none of it was ok.

Steady. Steady as she goes.

When I read that, I thought to myself that I can totally relate to that incessant need for productivity, but also that I named this space “Sara by the season” to reflect our attempts as a family to live more seasonally. And much of 2015 has been a season of upheaval and crazy for us, that my absence here reflects this season that we’re recovering from now.

I feel like everyone I talk to these days says some variation of life being “crazy busy” in response to the automated how are yous, and, to be honest, I’m just plain tired of feeling like I’m on a merry-go-round of my own making. We’ve been really trying to slow down, plan less, and just stick around home more often after the exhausting and exhilarating season that we find ourselves mostly on the other side of now. I’m finally feeling that itch to get more creative in the kitchen (versus the going-through-the-motions I’ve been doing so much of lately), we’re been daydreaming about how we can slowly and healthfully transform our new place to live more sustainably and self-sufficiently, and I’ve missed writing here.

So all of that to say: I’m back…for a bit anyway!